I surrender... I will yield...

Lord of All
Jose Villanueva

I surrender, I will yield
I will bow down, I will live
I will seek you, all my days
I will follow, all Your ways

Coz You are my only one
You are my only one

I wanna live for You
Be glorified forever
My life will declare
That You alone are Lord
Everything of me
Use it for Your glory
That everyone will see, will hear, will know
That You are Lord of all

I will worship, I will praise
I will lift up, Your holy name
I will give You, all the glory
All the honor, due Your name

Here I am Lord, mold me
Here I am Lord, use me
Here I am Lord, send me
For Your glory

September 29, 1990.

Mga daanang punung-puno ng dahon, ng mga nabaling sanga ng puno (at mga puno na rin) at maging mga patay na daga't paniki. Isang creek na walang amoy. Isang SHB na winallpaperan ng mga dahon ng kawayan at kalachuchi. Isang basag na salaming pintuang papuntang hagdan sa back lobby. Mga kisaming may pumapatak-patak na tubig-ulan na di mo naman alam kung sa aling singit-singit sa bubong ng dorm dumaan. Isang Philippine Science High School na walang kuryente. Mga taong nagcacandle light dinner sa caf. Mga taong na-empty batt. At mga taong wala nang nagawa kundi magtugtugan, magkwentuhan at maglakas ng loob na tumakas mula sa mundo ng chem at physics at ng the once and future king (at least yung iba) dahil wala namang pasok.

Akalain mo nga naman. Birthday ko pala nun. Mukhang malungkot no.. Isipin mo na lang. Di ka makalabas ng dorm kasi ayaw ni dorm manager. Di raw pwede. Wala kang magagawa. Tapos wala pang kuryente. At wala nang battery ang cellphone mo. Nacharge mo nga nung weekend yung AAA battery mo para sa mp3 player pero wala kang matinong earphones. Oo nga pala, may speakers ka ring dinala. Ay oo rin nga pala, walang potential difference na kailangan para magamit mo yun. Pero hindi. May mga tao lang talagang ginagamit ang Diyos para mapasaya ka sa pinakamalungkot mong araw, ang araw na nabuhay ka sa mundo.

Hinila ako ni Ben sa girl's dorm. May mga tao sa loob. Nagkukumpulan sila sa mga sofa. Iba't iba ang ginagawa. May naggigitara. May nagkukuwentuhan. At may mga kumakanta ng Kapayapaan. Tapos... biglang... may limang babaeng [Shayne, Muy, Jaki, Anne, Mich] humanay/nagpahanay CAT style. May kasama pang tuluyam bilang. sa. wa. lo. pat. apat na tao... tapos permission to speak.. harana.. papa andrew... wag na wag mong sasabihin. when you say nothing at all. kiss me. kapayapaan(aa.. dun pala yun). at ayan na.. Happy Birthday na..

Pero di pa pala tapos. Wala rin kasing kasiguruhan nung gabing yun. Di malaman kung may VCF worship service kinabukasan. May natataranta. May nalilito. Bakit? Kasi meron pala silang plano na ni isang beses ay di sumagi sa isip ko. *dundundun* ang kahon.

Ito ang master plan. Andrew + Ben + Mich sa the Block dahil manonood ng sine at magsstay dun hanggang 5:00 pm dahil na rin 6:00 ang service. Si Henson ay hihiwalay muna dahil meron daw siyang "pinsan" na kailangan niyang imeet. Tapos VCF. Tapos overnight sa bahay namin. Hulaan niyo na lang kung sino si pinsan... Si Pito. -_- At yun pala yung time na bumili sila ng... kahon. Pero siyempre sobrang wala akong ideya kung ano ang nangyayari. Nagpakita si Henson sa min sa Wham Burgers kasi di raw dumating yung pinsan niya. At talagang namang "nagkataon" na nandun din si Pito dahil meron daw siyang imemeet. Kaya ayun. Nanood kami ng sine. Kaso wala na si Pito kasi ewan ko. Ayun. Nood kami ng Step Up. Ayos. Tapos VCF. Hiwalay sa amin sina Pito, Joji at Jao. May tinatago yata. Pagkatapos ng service... *teden* Ayun na ang mahiwaga at nakakakilabot na... kahon.

Sa mga taong nagdedicate ng kanilang oras sa pagplano at pag-asikaso ng mga bagay-bagay na nangyari nung nakaraang dalawang araw.. Grabe. Wala akong masabi. Mahal ko kayong lahat!!! Xp Ito na ang pinakamasaya kong birthday dahil.. ewan ko. Nandun kayo e. At sobrang pinasasalamatan ko si God dahil nakilala ko kayong mga tao kayo!! You've all been a great blessing and encouragement for me. Salamat sa lahat. I love you all!!! God bless!!

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WoooohooOO!! sixteen na rin ako! Xp

VisComm is love...

Uulitin ko lang yung sinabi ko sa cbox.. hehe.. "Hi blog. buti di ka nilumot." Ahehehe..

Andrew: Hoy ikaw blog.. Kung akala mo ibblog ko pa lahat ng nangyari sa nakaraang isa't kalahating buwan ng walang pag-uupdate, nagkakamali ka... dahil tinatamad na ko!!! wahahaha!!!

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Andrew: Sige na nga. Pero recap lang. Hehe..

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Nyak. nababangag na ko. ok. So simula sa upcat. Ang hirap ng perio [first qtr]. Matino yung presentation ng truth sa reader's theater [iliad book 22]. Natalo kami sa cheering nung family day [go 07!].

Nareformat ung pc namin kaya lahat ng pics at mp3 na inipon ko ng apat na taon ay nawala. Narecover yung files kaya medyo ok na [pero kailangan ko pang magrename ng 14826 files dahil pare-pareho sila ng file name].

Um.. Ano pa ba.. Aa! Humanities week. Nanalo ang black team sa laro ng lahi kaya meron kaming mga relief goods [yun ung prize]. Nanalo ang truth [3rd place] sa sayaw int.

Nagreunion ang minamahal kong opal.

Tapos yung ACET na medyo ok lang pwera na lang yung abstract reasoning at numerical ability na kinulang sa oras. Napublish na namin ang Acts Website. Namimiss ko pa rin ang sodium.

At ngayo'y patuloy pa rin ang pagdurusa dahil nasa pisay pa rin ako [it goes hand in hand. pisay at pagdurusa. :D].

Haayyy.. Dalawa't kalahating quarters na lang pala... ... Ayokong magsenti. Saka na. Ayan. At least masasabi ko nang updated ka. Ahahaha... Makapagdorm na nga. :p

upcat... tapos na...

Sunday. 6:30 am. Palma Hall. Sunday. 6:30 am. Palma Hall. Sunday. 6:30 am. Palma Hall.

Upcat. tapos na. sana maganda yung resulta.. ang dami-daming nireview. di rin pala lalabas. yung mga di pa nireview yung lumabas. optics at summer solstice. tapos yung math... seven items yung di ko sinagutan. di ko na nabalikan e... -_- Pero ayos lang yung test... thanks Dad.

grabe. parang isang malaking bloke ng problema yung nawala sa kin a. ay joke. marami pa pala. go go mythology! Xp

Huwaw...

This week had been one of my most incredible weeks in pisay... Grabe. Ang daming nangyari... Xp

Simula tayo sa Monday.. Waw. Monday na Monday. Bigla ko na lang nalaman.. Kami ang magbabantay ng Pisay exhibit para sa NSTW. Pisay exhibit consists of selected Math4_07 and CAD projects. So opening day yun. E di nagpasukan na yung mga tao after ng ribbon-cutting... Tapos nagdaanan sa tapat ng Pisay exhibit yung mga media. Madaming flash. Maraming nag-iinterview sa paligid. Ang daming videocam. Bigla lang namin (nina Muy, Sir Nat, Sir Javi, Ma'am Pacs) namalayan na nakapasok na pala sa teritoryo namin ang secretary ng DOST. Sabi niya sumali raw kami sa intel. Luigi. Jayvee. Sali daw tayo. Wahahahaha!!! Tapos basta. Maraming tao. Nagagalingan sila sa mga projects. At interested pa yung iba para bumili. May libre akong keychain dahil sumagot ako ng evaluation na puro pambobola. Nakadalawang balik ako sa libreng ice cream na low fat at low sugar. Tapos nabawi ko rin yung P341.50 sa tarp dahil binayaran ako ni Sir Javier. yey. Libre lahat. Yung lunch. Yung mcdo. Yung transpo. Nasa bidget daw kasi. Wahahaha!!!

Tapos maraming long tests at quizzes at requirements... -_-

Tapos yung Acts bulletin board! At long last... Nasimulan na siya! oh yeah.

Next... Ma'am Tarun... Waaaaaaaaaa!!! -_- Ma'am Taruuuuuun!!!! "Wag nyo naman sanang sayangin ang ating nakalipas... Paano na ang Physics? Dahil sa inyo, napamahal na kami sa Physics na yan.. Kung kailan naman maliligaya na tayong lahat sa klase tsaka kayo aalis? Pinaasa nyo lang kami... " -isang ''nagddramang'' truth. Naman si Ma'am Tarun e. Ang bait pa naman niyang teacher. Magaling pa. Korni nga lang pero pwede pa rin... waaaaa!!! Bat kailangan nyong mag-aral ng limang taon?!?!?!

Moving on... Ang highlight ng linggo! Ang Friday! Kasi... Nagyaya si Pito. sa youth worship service ng VCF. Tapos nandun si Barbie (Almalbis) Honasan at si Rinka na magaling kumanta at ang kanyang group kung saan si Hallelujah guy sa Pepsi commercial ang drummer. Ang cute ni Barbie.. kinikilig-kilig pa siya sa asawa niya. hahahaha.. Grabe yung gabing yun. Sayang nga di namin nasimulan pero still.. Sobrang... waw.. *speechless* Tapos nag-overnight kaming limang dormers (ako henson revee jerome joreb) kina Pito... yey. masaya. wahahahaha!!!

Tapos kanina naman. LSC. refresher. tapos dota sa pisay. tapos umuwi na ko. yey. Xp

Hell week na parang heaven.

Hmmm... Namimiss ko na yung dati kong style ng pagbblog... yung kwento-kwento tapos puno ng details. ahahaha.. o baka siguro di lang talaga ako nag-uupdate. Xp

Nagsimula ang linggo sa... *drumroll* chem at physics long tests. yey. fun. tapos math long test. tapos compsci long test. gusto kong magpatiwakal. wahahaha.. joke. deh. seryoso. joke. gah. ang labo. basta. enough with acads. ang point.. suspended ang klase nung wednesday nang di naman umuulan. wala ring pasok nung thursday dahil dineclare ni gloria. tapos wala rin namang kaming pasok nung friday dahil fumigation. yowwwhaa! weh. pauso. yowha raw. booooo. ahahahaha.. binara yung sarili. ayan. naooti na ko.

Ayun. Pero kahit may bagyo.. di papipigil ang Acts. wahahaha!!! Kami ay nagplanning. overnight. sa "bahay" nina kuya Dave. ako. pito. henson. revee. jerome. joreb. mich. kyla. kevin. geeann. erin. [[ang hilig kong maglagay ng ganto no?]] Marami-rami rin ang naplano. JRev. Testigo. Camp. at marami pa. oh yeah. Pisay. humanda ka. dahil merong kikilos. diba Dad? ahahahaha..

At dahil ang weekend ng isang taga-pisay ay nonesuch... lalayas na ko. beh. :p

Ang Sarap Siguro..

Ang sarap sigurong matulog...

pag ganto kalamig ang panahon...

malambot ang kama...

maraming unan...

hmmmm...

Ang sarap sigurong magpahinga...

kung galing ka sa isang linggong nakakapagod...

kung buong linggo kang nag-aalala sa cat inspection...

nagdodota ka pa...

tapos buong linggo ka ring may sakit...

nakakapagod no?

Ang sarap sigurong managinip...

kung wala kang iniisip na requirements for next week...

bio. chem. physics. str. math. compsci. english. pinoy. econ. viscomm.

isama mo pa ang health na kailangan ng first aid kit.

ay. yearbook pa pala. at himig auditions.

ayan. kumpleto.

Ang sarap sigurong... um... matulog na lang ulit. haha..

kung wala kang iniisip na upcat... intarmed... bs mbb... bs bio... acet... pisay...

Gusto kong tulugan ang lahat.

Kung pwede lang...

Dad.. tulong...

*sigh* x_x

P.S. may stresstabs ka? wahehehehe.. :D

Hold on... cause you're on the edge.

May nabasa ako..

Hey! What if you could listen to Christian Music everyday on FM
radio...in Manila?

Tomorrow.

Get ready.

Hi. This is Jomar. This is a project that has been brewing for 2 years now. A long time ago, there was a 1hour Christian Rock Music show on Nu107 FM called Against the Flow. Its still there - at 1pm on Sunday.

But what we really wanted was a commercial radio station on FM - that plays good music both musically and in lyrical content. Not just the removal of "cursing" and "booty talk". More than that - messages that actually encourage, pick you up, help you live Abundantly. Its time this happened. Its time people plug in the messages of God into their brains, even if subliminally. Why not? Everybody else who has a product to sell wants to do that.

Starting this Saturday, July 1 @ 6pm-July 2 @6am --You can now tune in to 91.5 FM and listen to a completely NEW set of music daily. This is music
I grew up with. Some people will find that funny, maybe strange, me being radically Catholic and all - but for some - that's perfectly normal.

It may be called "Christian Music" - with all its accompanying negative vibes - but wait till you listen to it. The songs have been carefully selected, even the sequence. Its professional radio through-and-through -helmed by the person who helped kick start NU107 in its heydey - Ron Titular.

Manila is in for a blast!

This is not mellow music, this is not gregorian chants. This is Jars of Clay, Lifehouse, Switchfoot, POD, Pillar, Stacie Orico, Rachael Lampa, and so much more --bands you've never heard of - but should be heard! We're not playing all their songs - only those who pass a certain kind of quality.

It's time for something REALLY new.

TheEDGERADIO.NET

oh yeah. spread the word. i know you want to. ahahaha.

oo nga pala. even if it's still not 6 pm, you can always log on to the edge radio para masaya ang buhay.

JESUS ROCKS!

First Two. -_-

Ang dami. Ang dami-dami. Ang dami-daming nangyari.. nangyayari.. Fourth year... grabe.. ang tindi mo.

Nakakapagod.. Gusto ko nang magbakasyon... >_<

Megamall entrance.

We went to the megamall for a couple of days to buy some stuff for the upcoming school days. Which, by the way, is three days from now. *gasps* *panics* Anyway, after some browsing and buying, I always end up waiting in the entrance of the mall. Why, you ask? For one, National bookstore is on A. That's why I often get separated with the others. They're mega building B people. Another is because I still don't have that thing my very good-looking hold-up-er took [without the sim card. beh. :p]. Still can't contact them or ask where they are in the mall.. or rather ask WHY they're still in when they are supposed to be waiting for me at the car. -_-

Paging them won't work. Often, they finish megamall-ing with the grocery. Paging system is for department store people only. And trying to find them won't be that efficient.. and easy.. I still have to fall in line to deposit my ever loved backpack. Then I still have to find them... alley by alley. left. right. then search for them at the cashiers. All 32 of them. Megamall grocery is different. They change their uhhh.. um.. layout? more often these days.. The best thing to do is wait... at the entrance... >_<

Waiting... makes me go sit on the steps of the mall entrance. Then I get to observe people passing by. and... I actually enjoyed doing it. :)

All sorts of people went through. Doesn't really matter if they're going in or out. The point is... They are a lot. And they are so.. uhm.. uniquely funny.

I saw this pair. They're holding hands while walking.. fingers crossed.. a head on the shoulder of the other.. a very sweet couple.. their eyes looking far across.. like they're daydreaming of their future lives.. when they already have kids.. playing in front of their dream house.. living simple, quiet lives... Only to find out they're both guys. XD

Then this lady. She's in a hurry.. She's carrying a file case. With papers in it. [-_-] I think she's on for an interview. She stopped by.. some meters away.. She gets her bag.. grabbed her facial powder and her lipstick.. got her face done.. then she took her smint.. and then her dental floss.. O_o sprayed perfume.. then flew away to her job interview.

Next are the promoters. Usually gay, they're the people responsible for the leaflets and brochures that end up as paper airplanes, origami, paperboxes [:p], or simply some crumpled paper in trash bins. I just saw the look on their faces the moment and after people took their brochures. Oh yeah. They're definitely plastic people. Smiling. Desperate to give out their papers. Then backstabbing the very people who took their trash.

Not minding the inconvenience they are causing. Imagine a woman carrying a baby and a heavy bag. Then this guy comes out of nowhere trying to convince the woman that Parkfields Condominium [@_@] is the best place on earth and she needs to get the brochure or she'll miss the chance of a lifetime. Pity...

And I saw a lot of families. But this one stands out. They all wear blue. Waw. Strong family bond. Coincidence? I think not. They were all close with each other. They were all happy.. First time.. Maybe. or maybe not. One thing's sure though. They were.. uh.. nevermind.. >_<

gah. Enough with the people. Tired of typing.. I'm hungry. Give me some fried kangkong topped with fried garlic. how I miss those days...